Sunday, June 28, 2009
What a wonderful world...
Yesterday, my only child was the maid of honor at what turned out to be a beautiful outdoor wedding. NOTHING could have made me miss seeing her in it...except for what has been the thorn in my side for years...migraines. I tried so hard to not be sick. But nothing worked. I ended up not being able to go. Because of that, I spent the bulk of the day questioning God and asking, "Why? Why, today of all days???" I felt so sorry for myself! My husband attended and brought back pictures, which made me cry even harder. Even though I get angry at my heavenly Father...even though I scream and cry and throw temper tantrums sometimes, I can never remain angry at Him for long. I always come back to the realization that He is the ONLY one who truly loves me unconditionally, now and forever, no matter what I do, say or think. He reminded me of others who are in so much more pain...not just for a day or two, here and there. God also reminded me His ways are not my ways. In this, and in all things...
Here are some pics of what I missed yesterday, but thank God I have a wonderful husband who was able to go and at least get these for me. (Thank you, Jim...for everything!)
I guess because I was so depressed yesterday...and still didn't feel well enough to go church this morning...when I saw this old movie ("Good Morning, Vietnam"), while channel surfing, it made me very sad when I viewed this particular part. Even after all these years and all the devastation, we haven't learned one single thing.
Rereading this, it seems strange to post such a happy event with such a sorrowful one. The movie clip reminded me of what is going on in Iran right now and I just wanted to reiterate how seemingly we humans are doomed to repeat the past without ever learning anything. It also serves as a reminder that only God has control over ALL the madness! He is with us in our happiness... and our sadness.
(My brain is still a little "fuzzy", so I HOPE all these ramblings make some semblance of sense!)